Day by day,
I realize my humor is getting less and lesser.
I am not a humor person anymore.
I couldn’t tell joke,
and I couldn’t make people laugh or even just smile.
My brain stops running
And I remain silent.
How good if sometime I can be the joker,
Make people laugh make people smile.
Miss the time I was in uni,
When buddies gather together,
A lot of jokes, though a lot of bullshit too.
Tonight is the Christmas night.
And I do really feel free tonight.
And I watched this movie which purposely downloaded by me one month ago.
“You are the apple of my eyes”
Seriously, that was a very nice movie for me.
It deeply reflects the life of the student.
It was so memorable, so pure yet fantastic.
The story line was simply nice.
The main actor is just simply suite to act as their character.
What a pity for their ending,
But it was alright.
Fate is always to be like that.
How i wish i can be the people in this song~
You are going to have to take risks and venture into unfamiliar territory in order to succeed
What an inspirational song!
You’ll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?
Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the day
Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Try to have no regrets
even if it’s just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead
if you keep living behind
Stuck in my same position,
you deserve so much more
There’s a whole world around us,
just waiting to be explored
Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now, just let it go
The world will force you to smile
I’m here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What’s in you is out there
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient)
the first step is the hardest (the hardest)
I know you can make it,
go ahead and take it
I’m Waiting, waiting, just waiting I’m waiting
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
You’ll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?
This feeling was weird.
I do really want to write something here.
But i am kinda lazy to write out.
I don't know what i want lately.
I seriously don't know.
Unimportant and aimless.
I should set myself some target.
OMG, cant wait to watch this movie.
I seriously put high expectation on this movie.
Feel like going to watch alone in cinema.
Anyway, this song is just simply nice.
Hell ya, today I totally don’t have the mood to work.
After a short trip, a lot things pops out in my mind.
Feel like go and take some course right now and turn back to be a student again.
Or change another job and location to work.
It now it was impossible but how I wish I can turn back to secondary school or uni life again.
Here comes a memorable trip again in my life time.
I am the host and the planner for this trip.
I am happy to have these friends around me.
Although spent a lot of money and energy, it definitely worth its value.
Although the time is short, I am happy to have some memorable time with them.
It makes me like I am going back to my precious uni life again.
I precious all the laughter, the jokes, and friendship among us.
I am glad to have their coming, and look forward to our next meet although we don’t know when it is.
Maybe another 1 years, 3 years or 5 years or we will never meet again.
Damn, I am a bit empty right now.
Sometime I really hope the happiness will never end.
I hope we have a longer holiday, or the holiday will never end like we are still studying in Uni.
While I think that I have to work tomorrow, it really likes FML.
Life is life, we can’t control how it gonna be.
Hope they enjoy this trip and may god bless them.
My life is empty right now, and i dont know how my future gonna be.
I regret.
I regret for telling something that I shouldn’t tell.
I regret for believing wrong people.
Take it as a lesson and fuck the one with big mouth.
I really regret and i will remember.
It had been a while I didn’t add up something to here.
And now I wonder should I quit blogging or not.
Many things happened lately and now I should update it at below:
1. I am re-employed as a site engineer.
2. I had attended my graduation ceremony.
3. I bought a car.
I thought there are many, but only these matters that were critical.
I think I should set myself a target.
Sentence of the day:
Everything happened for a reason.
Don’t ever complain for the consequences that u deserved to take
Remember, there is no shortcut to success.
Everything happens with a reason.
Everything success with a reason, and they fail with a reason too.
No effort, No success.
Now I realized I have phobia over my job.
This might due to my own personality.
When come to stress, I RUN.
When it is easy, I BORED.
My job in MIRI is totally NOT tough at all.
But I still don’t know the reason I don’t like working.
Maybe one thing can explain,
I don’t like to be an engineer.
Time is too slow, maybe I need someone to talk with me.
Finally, I got my first engineer job in Miri after rotting around 3 weeks at home.
As my friends said, he wonder he should congrates me or saying condolences to me.
We all experience that working is not that easy.
Can I handle the stress this time?
Will I run again?
I guess No, there is no way for me to run.
My choices wont be wrong for me to come back.
At least, I still got my family and my friends here.
Tonite is a good night, I play my badminton again at the nite.
Although lose quite a few matches, the feeling is there.
I like my badminton, too bad I dint bring my shoes back.
Everything will be alright.
Cheers =)
I am back in Miri.
Haven find job, slacking at home.
No idea how.
Meet old friend, thanks for their present and their heart.
Ate a lot at the night, keeps on hungry.
Don’t know why.
Willing go out tapao to cure hungry.
And Miri is so damn hot.
Don’t know why.
Hot Very Hot.
Hi Miri, Hi my friends.
Thanks to those who encouraged me.
Thanks to those who helped me these years.
Thanks to those who are willing to be my friend.
Thanks to those who understand me.
Thanks to those who trust me.
Thanks to those who like me.
Thanks everyone.
When i look into the calender today,
I just realized my bufday is on tomolo.
I guess nothing special on tomolo as all the friends
have their own task to do.
It is okay, Happy bufday to myself.
Oh damn, damn. damn
I am so stress right now. I lost my direction.
I need someone to talk to.
Someone really can give me good advice.
I really don’t know which road can I choose.
A way to back Miri or SG.
Damn, I can’t make my choice right now.
Headache.
FML
我懂我自己这样做不好
但是没办法，我不能不这样做
仍希望他们一切安好
但我相信他们也怪不得我
毕竟我也还是新人
对不起
做了大概10 天的我，付出的比得到的更多
我不是没认真想过
但是我真的忍受不到那无法沟通的工作
我不想一个礼拜的时间都是用来改图
多过来画图
我已经累了
走了
Wake up in the midnight
Oh damn, what can i do in the midnite?
Listen to fish's song, hope her song a least can make me fall asleep a bit
Attracted by this song tonite~
梁靜茹 - 最後
6 years of primary school
6 years of secondary school
5 years of university life
Finally I am officially graduated. Result came out today. Surprisingly, I get C for my economics. The lecturer really shows her mercy. Anyway thanks god.
I felt nothing for my graduation, NO happy, NO excited. For me, graduation is just a ceremony that split the friends around. Recalled back, I did really miss my secondary school life, especially form 5. We are still young that time; we are still pure that time. There is no stress to go school, what we had left now are just simply memories.
Five years of university life also past quite fast. I didn’t notice that actually I already stayed around 5 years in KL. There is no regret for me to come KL. At least, I get to learn more things, experience new living style, knew more friends. These years, I start to travel around west Malaysia. Hope to explore every place every city.
Now, I stepped into working society. I know world is realistic, I know thing may not happen as our wish. I know what we think that is true might be fake too. Yes, I know. I have to learn to be independent. Not asking people to help me, is people should beg me to help them. I know this sound cruel, but life is just like this.
Just came back from Genting today after an overnight. What I learnt is that “Things that actually not belong to you, it eventually not belongs to you”.
